The End of 2015, Looking Ahead to 2016

Wow, guys. Another year's gone by, where'd the time go? It's like time keeps speeding up, at least for me. Although on one hand it won't slow down, on the other it feels really weird that I'm not studying for anything at the moment and I want time to speed up so I can start studying again (my mom won't let me, she said I needed a break sooo guess who's impatiently waiting for Monday? Weird, right? I just wanna get everything over with and done so I can move on past college, haha).

I hope your 2015 was good. Mine had its ups and downs. Major ups and downs haha. Met some cool people, had to say goodbye to some cool people, still not so good at saying goodbye.

I'm not sure I'll ever be good at saying goodbye. I don't know, I just can't. It's always "See ya later." Like, I can't accept finality or something, that I'm never going to see someone again. I can't wrap my head around the concept that I won't see someone ever again, won't be able to talk to someone again. This world's big, but it's not that big, and with God all things are possible, so...

Anyways. I learned a lot in 2015. I'm not Supergirl, for one. I'm human, which means my body and my mind break down if I push them too hard. So, breaks are, unfortunately, mandatory.

Yes, I've finally started to develop an "WHO NEEDS BREAKS I HAVE WORK TO DO" attitude. It's about stinking time haha. I use my free time to either watch Anime, movies with the fam, chill out, or sleep. Oh, and play my guitar. Who knew practicing every day could make you develop calluses on your fingertips, even after you've been playing for years? Well, now I know how the great guitarists of today and yesterday became great.

Another thing I learned in 2015: I'm an idiot. I know very, very, very little about how life and the world works and what my place in it is. I don't know much about anything, and what I do not about something I've only barely scratched the surface.

If this scares you, believe me, it scares me too. But on the bright side... that means there's still more for me to discover. Even if someone else has already figured it out, that doesn't mean we can't figure it out too. And who knows, maybe you or I will figure it out even better.

So, sayonara 2015. It's been swell. Crazy. Ridiculous. Ayo. Stupid. Sad. Happy. Funny.

I won't say it's been a great year, 'cause only parts were great, other parts were bittersweet, and then downright bitter, in the dumps, a struggle to survive and claw my way out of the mess I either created myself, imagined myself into, or that others threw at me. I look back at the year and think, man. I came pretty far this past year, thank God. I look forwards at this new year and think, aya, I got a long way to go. 2015 was hectic, messy, hilarious, and sometimes downright miserable. But, in the words of Stitch, "Is still good. Yeah. Still good."

I hope you guys had a good year, and are having a good winter break. God bless ya. Drive safe. Love ya.

--Sonya :) <3

P.S. "See you, on the other side." No, that's not an Adele reference, it's an Emporer's New Groove reference. :P :D

A 'Less Than a Week Before Christmas' Post

Here's a poem for you guys.

T'was the week before Christmas,
And all through my house,
Everyone was laughing and enjoying break,
While I sat in my room contemplating my fate,
See I have one last paper to finish,
Shouldn't be too hard, right?
Unfortunately, it's a proposal you see,
And I have no idea what I'm doing,
I want to submit it half-finished,
Just be done with it and not care
But sadly you see, I'm unfortunately me,
And my parents would probably freak,
So right now I'm just sitting here,
wondering what to do,
I should probably go ask my dad for help,
but I don't really want to,
'Cause see when I asked him earlier,
I thought I had an epiphany
I thought, "Finally I know what to do,"
But now that plan and all words escape me,
So what will I do today?
Will I finally finish English 2?
Or will I just stare in despair at this assignment
And drink coffee enough to kill a kangaroo?

Okay, enough procrastinating. Pray for me, guys, the struggle is too real right now.

For those of you who're done with finals... CONGRATS NOW GO ENJOY YOUR CHRISTMAS/ WINTER BREAK. Everybody else in the same boat as me (which is probably barely anyone at all)... we will get through this together. Just hang on. You'll be okay. You can do this.

God bless ya. Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays. :)

--Sonya